Natosha's Breastfeeding Journey

27 Aug 2016

Every nursing journey is different and unique. My first nursing journey started twenty-four hours after my first son was born.  He was in the RNICU and I was finally going to be able to hold him for the first time.  I was so nervous about breastfeeding before he was born.  Now though I was worried waiting for twenty-four hours would somehow ruin it all.  When they handed him to me I just held him close, trying to soak it all in.  Hugh started to nuzzle down my chest, searching for milk.  Then he latched and I was so excited that we were actually doing this together!  From that moment on, I just knew this was going to work. It was hard work though especially in those first few weeks. But I am so glad I stuck with it. 

A few months in I finally felt like I had gotten the hang of breastfeeding and I find out that we are expecting again!  Nursing thru pregnancy is not something to take lightly. Besides growing another human, I was still trying to sustain myself and another human. Nursing two was easier in ways but not easier in other ways. Juggling two different size and developmental staged babies at the breast is sometimes exhausting but has become second nature to me. 

If you had told me five years ago that I would be nursing an almost two-year-old AND an infant, I would not have believed you. I would have never believed that I would be nursing in public uncovered. Although at times nursing is not the easiest thing to do, I feel so lucky to have this special time with both of my boys.  I will cherish these memories forever.  The past twenty-two months I struggled with clogged ducts, sleep deprivation, constant cluster feeding, night weaning, nursing aversion and breastfeeding in public.  Whenever I am having a bad day with breastfeeding I just keep trying to push through.  Eventually that day will end and our nursing journey will still continue on.